Showing posts with label tears. Show all posts
Showing posts with label tears. Show all posts

7.23.2011

More tears...

It has been a week or so since my last post and I am actually laying in my bed, posting from my phone cause I am too lazy to go get my laptop...pitiful, I know.
Anyway, LeAnne has officially moved and it taking a toll on all of us.  She left on Sunday afternoon (luckily I was at work but I still cried when mom called and told me) and it was pretty bad.  Lucas and Addy, who have been each others  best friend for their entire 5 years and were suppose to start kindergarten together, clung to each other in tears.  Lucas begging her not to go (here come my tears again as I type) while Addy just buried her head in his shoulders sobbing. Imagine two little kids, who doesn't understand in the first place...it breaks your heart.  So of course Mom, LeAnne, and Haley were all crying.  LeAnne said her and Addy cried all the way to Alabama.
Since I didn't get to see them before they left and Leanne likes for me to organize Addy's room I decided to take off down there Tuesday night after I got off work.  Mom, Wilkins, and Lucas went too.  We got there at 3am, got up at 930am, went to the way"barrel" for breakfast which ended up being hilarious.  There are 8 (3 adults & 5 kids) who order.  Will orders one over well egg with bacon (remember this it is important).  we all get our food except Will ...the server lets us know his food will be out in just a minute.  When she returns she brings one scrambled egg, sausage, and one pancake.  We promptly tell her we didn't order all that to which she responds with a wave of her hand and says "don't worry" and " I will be back in a minute with that over well egg." 
Keep in mind I am a manager at a different location...she then returns with two over medium eggs and a piece of turkey sausage and tells us just keep it...no big Deal!!  By this time I am dying...again she returns Finally with an over well egg and some bacon too which just busted out laughing!!  Too beat it all our ticket was right on the first time so I have no idea how many voids she created for the manager that day and I sure hope that none of my servers screw up that many times without hhaving a manager visit the table.  We were stuffed needless to say!!
We then headed back to Leanne's house where mom slept, the kids played, and Leanne and I worked.  We had some fun while we did it and then it was time to say goodbye again.  I am not sure why this is so hard on all of us but it is.  We hugged goodbye and the tears came again.  Lucas was sobbing begging Addy once again to go.  I was crying trying to explain to Lucas that she was coming next week.  Mom and Leanne were crying because it is like your heart being ripped out watching these kids cry like their best friend just died.  Addy hugs my neck as tight as she can and tears begin to form in her eyes.  It is heart breaking.
Addy called me this evening to tell me that she missed me and I broke down again.  She was just chatting away and I was crying.  I then talked to Leanne and was crying while her and I talked about the fact that our kids wouldn't be going to school together (we always thought Lucas, Addy, Wilkins, and Logan would all be in the same school). Lucas and Addy are only two years older than Wilkins and Logan.  I had to get off the phone with her to get a hold of myself then Addy calls me back to say..."Aunt B you weren't suppose to hang up cause I had something else to tell you.  I miss you and I love you."
At that point there was no holding back.  I told her the same and got off the phone cause I couldn't keep it together any longer.  I am in tears now just typing it...is this ever going to get easier?!  I am praying that things will happen to move my sister back to Tenn, five minutes down the road!!

7.08.2011

Boxing up Yaya....

Started with tears, now with some giggles...
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7.02.2011

Where does time go?!

Who has time to blog during the summer?!

Only 2 blog posts in June = TERRIBLE!!

It's catch up time with some pictures...sorry for getting so behind...


Blake and Wilkins...BUDDIES = DOUBLE TROUBLE

Yaya wearing Addy's shoes...DORK!

Yaya torturing Lucas yet again!

Haley "helping" Yaya...

Amanda, Levi, and Carley scared to death of Yaya because she has
panty hose on her head...another child to torture!!

Wilkins in her "pakini"

Wilkins and I at Chick-fil-a...what a conversation?!

Addy, Wilkins, and Will at Baskin Robbins after a day of me working
and them swimming

What a day of swimming does to her...ahhhh peace and quiet for me!


A day of shopping...just me, mom, LeAnne, Addy, and Wilkins
Some very random pictures and some very fun times in the past month...

Seems like most are centered around LeAnne but she is typically the life of the party especially late at night.  These are the times I am gonna miss most when she moves to Alabama.  It's not like she will just be 5 minutes down the road so we won't be staying up to all hours of the night doing crazy stuff!  The closer it gets the harder is getting.  I really can't imagine not seeing her every day (and yes we do see each other just about every day).  I am gonna miss her, Haley, and all the kids popping up at my work for breakfast.  Life is not gonna be the same...what is Wilkins going to do without her Yaya?!  What am I gonna do without Addy?!  It's not that she is my pick but she has always been my baby...before I had Wilkins I had Addy.  When Wilkins was born and I was on maternity leave Addy stayed with me almost every day...

Y'all will think this is crazy but there are literally tears running down my face as I type all this.  Will, Wilkins, and Addy are laying on a blanket in the floor watching a movie and I am sitting here crying like a goofball because they are gonna be gone in two weeks or less.  I really thought things would work out to where they wouldn't move but I guess I was mistaken.  Bryson got the holy ghost this week at Smyrna and I thought to myself, "This is what needed to happen to keep them here" but it doesn't look like that is going to work.  I am so proud of Bryson but I worry so much about him moving to such a bigger church with a bigger crowd.  I know if he was here he wouldn't ever get looked over because of the small crowd.   

Enough rambling for me...who knows what the future holds?!  We can't predict it...what I do know is the next couple of weeks is only going to get harder so please keep all of us in your prayers because we desperately need it...

6.23.2011

It's been so long....

....since I have blogged!  The problem is I have been in kind of a funk lately.  I have put off blogging because I really haven't had anything great to talk about but you all read the good things so now you will have to read the not so good things.

I am sure you have all heard by now that LeAnne is moving back to Alabama :(

I, of course, don't want her to move but if it is what is meant to be then I can accept it.  I can't imagine her not living right down the road and I can't imagine not seeing the kids basically every single day (tears)!!  What breaks my heart the most is that Wilkins won't have her Yaya here.  She is so attached to LeAnne and I know that once LeAnne moves almost 3 hours away the relationship between them won't be the same.  It won't be like it was when she lived there before because now all of her kids will be in school, I work and go to school full time so we can't just pick up and go when we want to. 

I, only hope and pray that one day they will move back to Tennessee.  What is meant to be will be.  That's my motto...if things aren't working out smoothly then maybe you are going against God's plan.  Things come together when it is right.

On to something else now...I am contemplating getting my own place.  Those of you who don't know I live in the upstairs of my parent's house.  When Wilkins was small it just made more sense because my mom was coming to my house @ 4am so that I could go to work.  Though my hours haven't really changed Wilkins is a little older and it is time for us to strike out on our own.  Without the help of my mom and my sisters I wouldn't even be able to work where I work so now I am weighing out my options.  If I have to be at work at 5am then can I stand taking Wilkins to my mom's to spend the night?!  I am just going to see what happens for now...if it is meant to be it will.

My mind is all over the place right now with work, school, and home.  Such big decisions to be made that I am afraid I might make the wrong one.  Trying to find the path that is right for Wilkins and myself....