It's been so long....

....since I have blogged!  The problem is I have been in kind of a funk lately.  I have put off blogging because I really haven't had anything great to talk about but you all read the good things so now you will have to read the not so good things.

I am sure you have all heard by now that LeAnne is moving back to Alabama :(

I, of course, don't want her to move but if it is what is meant to be then I can accept it.  I can't imagine her not living right down the road and I can't imagine not seeing the kids basically every single day (tears)!!  What breaks my heart the most is that Wilkins won't have her Yaya here.  She is so attached to LeAnne and I know that once LeAnne moves almost 3 hours away the relationship between them won't be the same.  It won't be like it was when she lived there before because now all of her kids will be in school, I work and go to school full time so we can't just pick up and go when we want to. 

I, only hope and pray that one day they will move back to Tennessee.  What is meant to be will be.  That's my motto...if things aren't working out smoothly then maybe you are going against God's plan.  Things come together when it is right.

On to something else now...I am contemplating getting my own place.  Those of you who don't know I live in the upstairs of my parent's house.  When Wilkins was small it just made more sense because my mom was coming to my house @ 4am so that I could go to work.  Though my hours haven't really changed Wilkins is a little older and it is time for us to strike out on our own.  Without the help of my mom and my sisters I wouldn't even be able to work where I work so now I am weighing out my options.  If I have to be at work at 5am then can I stand taking Wilkins to my mom's to spend the night?!  I am just going to see what happens for now...if it is meant to be it will.

My mind is all over the place right now with work, school, and home.  Such big decisions to be made that I am afraid I might make the wrong one.  Trying to find the path that is right for Wilkins and myself....

Two Prayer Requests...

Let me first start by saying that I have been so caught up in my own stress and drama to even post anything for quite sometime.  I am just now to a point to where I actually feel like sharing and asking for everyone's help.  I am not asking for a million dollars or anything just what is meant to be even if it means taking myself out of certain situations.

My first request is personal and family related.  I know that I am selfish because I really want it to work out the way I want but I also know that isn't fair.  In my heart I want what is meant to be, whatever that may be so that everyone involved is where they are suppose to be. If the outcome is not what I particularly want then I just want help to be able to accept it.  It will be really hard for all of us involved if the outcome is one way but I know that with some prayers we can all be accepting.  We have all gotten to the point to where we are willing to let it play out the way it is suppose to.  So it is now out there and out of my hands...

My second request is about my job.  I am a very highly motivated, challenge-seeking, hard working manager but lately I am finding myself slipping into "complacent".  I find myself not really wanting to go to work nor when I get there really caring about things I know that I am suppose to be doing.  I find myself very frustrated with my boss and fellow managers I work with because of the inconsistencies in our store.  So this is where my prayer request comes in...I have been strongly thinking about looking elsewhere for a job.  I don't want to do that because I know my store has lots of potential with the right leader and I have so much time invested with this company.  I believe in this company's mission and have seen it happen but unfortunately due to the leadership now it ain't happpening.  So if it is meant for me to stay with this company I need a sign by the end of July or I am gonna start looking for another job.  I can't continue to go to work and continue to lose my passion and motivation for my career only to come home in tears due to so much frustration. It isn't fair to me nor to my family.

So all thoughts and prayers are greatly appreciated and needed both professionally and personally.